I don't know what to do with myself

I just finished my exams and now we have a week off for Easter - I can't really go home so I'm just sitting in an otherwise empty house, alone. For the past few days I saw and caught up with a few of my friends but now everyone's gone home! I really don't know what to do to occupy myself, I'm not used to having so much time to myself!

Exams went horribly. I feel like this year has gone horribly wrong. I'm actually mentally preparing myself for resits, but I feel like I should be physically doing something too. I always tend to do worse in MCQs compared to SAQs, and this is what really scares me.

> GP exam - I think it went okay. Not amazing, but I think I've done enough to pass?
> OSCE - aced a cardio station (I like to think), but I didn't know what was wrong with the patient I got for abdo. Case discussion went slightly wrong. History taking was HORRIBLE. I just wish I hadn't revised the bit on hepatitis the night before - I totally forgot to ask about alcohol in someone with massive peripheral oedema.
> Medicine and Surgery MCQs - went wrong. I don't think I did enough to pass. There were so many questions on the types of shock which I didn't even know about. Also, about when complications of operations happen. I just don't know anymore. If I do have a resit, this must be the one I need to do. The thing is, I didn't know how to revise it because it was too broad - my fourth year housemates said they didn't revise and they were based on things you naturally pick up from being at hospital. The only reassuring thing is that everyone found it really hard. But I dunno. I'm actually terrified of finding out the results this year.
> Pathology etc MCQs - Slightly better than medicine and surgery, but I kind of blanked out for Immunology and the picture questions.

I do feel like crying sometimes. This morning I woke up thinking about the questions I got wrong in the exam. I just feel really gloomy at the moment, and it's not just because of the weather / lack of social interaction. Failing, being alone, just everything.
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